Today was a rough day as I had to make a decision to sell something of my son's when I was put on the spot on a large transaction, i didn't not mind as it was damaged and I'm sure I can likely easily replace it with the newer version or the exact same toy but it still sunk my heart a little to have so see that piece go.. I know clearing out stuff is good and will help with less of the subtle reminders that at my core I am still a fucking DADDY and that's something No one No matter her anger can take away from me... it just hurt a little to let the toy go as it was one of his favorite things but like all things it is a replaceble thing and right now it's probaly easier to let stuff be replaced rather than stockpiling a great amount of toys that may never be played with because of one person that doesn't have anything but her selfish needs and wants in mind... it's always a battle when choosing what the next step in my life is going to be, but the reality is.. as long as I don't let myself stare to far into the abyss, the abyss can't stare back... the dark side can't consume me.
Current Mood: Sad.
You were weak when I found you. I did not expect you to survive your training. But now, your hatred has become your strength. At last, the dark side is your ally.
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