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Rage IV


I have too much going on to be sidetracked by people who should mean nothing to me, and their petty behaviors, I should not have lost sleep or be this angry about a small matter of someone else being a douche... This has never been a battle for me about my axe to grind and the only thing this battle has ever been about is my son. I am angry at the system yeah, but those of you that know me and know my entire life experinces know exactly why I am angry agianst them, of course the only real change I ever attempted to make was from within, until a jealous and petty person took that away from me for the moment... But at this point it is time for me to have focus and not spend my time with assholes that are beneath me and their petty delusions. Anger can be used as a tool or it can destroy and I'd like my flame to burn brighter than the Destroying flame I see all around me.

Current Mood: Angry, Depressed.
Your beliefs don't make you a better person, your behavior does.

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