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Dead Space 2.

When things decide to fall apart or get better things don't improve at all, I am sick of fighting a war of words and a battle within as much as it is without, There is not much left in my life that leaves with a sense of warmth but i have a good home and good people around me and It is frustrating to see them deal with some of the same bullshit demons that have chased me the last few years, everything is just a battle and it's not fucking fair... i have seen true injustice in this world and it not what I spend my days and nights starving fighting a losing battle, I often wonder how much easier my life would be if i hadn't stuck to my guns on every fucking level and stayed in Windsor, or left now to go back to Windsor or even better Vancouver, but the reality is I need to stick to my guns and be exactly where I am in my life... Because I am a Dad, and that is and always will be the number one priority in my life no matter the battle.

Current Mood: Depressed.
A wise man fights to win, but he is twice a fool who has no plan for possible defeat.

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