I am Sick of waiting for things to change, And i am sicker still of feeling like my life is an endless loop of the same garbage day in and day out for almost 30 years... it's time to reevaluate everything and remember exactly who I am and who I fought to be and not let the world bring me down to my knees on so many occasions, I am moving farther away from any type of nice or light person and descending further into my own anger darkness, While sometime I may be able to use this as fuel there after often other times it leaves me with crippling depression and anger and I don't know what the next step in my life is going to be after two years in purgatory, but i Do know and understand that the next step, the next chess move is mine and mine alone to make and I am making it. it's not about victory, it's not about where my soul is going to end up at the end of this road, it's about something else... I already know i'm damaged, but he shouldn't be. it's not his fault... and this is the only thing this battle is about anymore... but one day the hands will be dealt and other's will show themselves for what they truly are and I'll be standing tall.
Current Mood: Depressed.
I leave this as a declaration of intent. So no one will get confused. One. Si vis pacum para bellum. Latin. The drill sargeant made us recite it like a prayer. Si vis pacum para bellum. If you want peace, prepare for war. Two. Frank Castle is dead. He died with his family. Three. In certain extreme situations, the law is inadequate. In order to shame its inadequacies, it is necessary to act outside the law. To pursue natural justice. This isn't veangence. Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response. No. Not vengeance. Punishment.
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