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Angels II...


I should Not be fighting a battle to protect you in you're darkest of hours...yet here I am fighting that battle so that you and that child are allowed your time to mourn and I am not going to be the harbinger of more doom onto you're life right now...I Cannot imagine how you feel, only that I know exactly how I feel, and I know that right now I need space from all this..you have the time to mourn and I will stand by you If i am needed because under that dark hole that you have left inside my chest still lies compassion and love for one of you, and one of you is someone I used to love... right now that has to be enough, it's all i can give you until you actually decide to ask for support.. but i will make your path either for the next month or so..this is a time for forgiveness not a time to seize and attack you at your weakest.. maybe one day you will understand what i am sacrificing....but I should not have to fight a battle to allow you some peace of mind in these dark days... but I understand exactly why I have to do it.. I loved her too....

Current Mood: Sad, Frustrated.
You don't turn your back on family, even when they do.

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