He's Back (The Man Behind The Mask) V: 2013 edition

It's Nice to be home, Nothing like taking a few days of just doing nothing at all and chilling and seeing old freinds and settling into old behaviors to distract from the ongoing darkness in my life...I was at my best here, and I still fit the mold, I could go back to the person i was in an instant, thing's havent changed here for me like they have everywhere else... my social circle was and is here, these are people that stand by me all thru my life, just like my family members...this is where I grew up and I could eaily slip back into being a university student and hanging out In a millisecond and finish things left undone If i chose to.. there are always going to be options here for me... I know exactly why i left but I also know this will always be a safe place and even more this is a safe place should I choose to return after the battle is over with what i hold most precious.... This is home... I know that regardless of anything that happens now in the rest of my life i can always come back here and be judged on my person and the character that I am, the freind that I am, and the Man that I was and still Am, I haven't changed, My circumstances Have.

Current Mood: Happy.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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