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Avenging Angel


I have bought you a month of peace at great personal cost to my self, this is the only quarter that you get... If it makes me the villain I am perfectly Fine with that... I still need to move forward in my life and make the wrong things right... i feel sorry for your loss and wish i could fix it and fix you but i cannot... i can only buy you a little bit of time and give you peace so that you can rebuild, but i can't forget that you destroyed me over two years ago.. and I cannot forget you have taken me away and out of that innocent souls life's for the last two years... It is only out of concern I have allowed you the peace i have given you, and I may leave doors open to a more peaceful solution than I have in days past, but there is still things that need to be answered for and I won't ever walk away... just because I am a compassionate man does not mean that i forgot, right now I may have forgiveness in my heart but that won't last forever... i'm the man I've always been, you know exactly who I am... it's time for you to look inward on your decisions of your life and decide exactly what the next step is going to be.. i leave that up to you...

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Staid, So far away...
In any story, the villain is the catalyst. The hero's not a person who will bend the rules or show the cracks in his armor. He's one-dimensional intentionally, but the villain is the person who owns up to what he is and stands by it.

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