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Angels...

I am trying to decide what is the right thing to do right now, as my loved ones regardless of the situation need time to mourn i feel the last thing i need right now is to be on the offensive and attacking them, i have given direction to the people i can directly make answer to me for the moment... as much as i have anger towards certain members of the dark shadow that i call my heart... Regardless i will protect you even from me in your darkest hours... there's is no quarter and No reason right now to attack you when you are down and I will not let things i have put in motion affect you in your weakest moments... I am not that weak a Man.... it's time for you to heal... every thing else is fucking secondary, One day maybe you will look back on silence and realize the true test this was for me... and the character of a man I truly am, this is out of concern and love for you both, and the fact that I feel as helpless as you and If I was there regardless of our past and every angry moment... at a moments notice I would be standing beside both of you...Standing strong for both of you, Without Judgement.

Current Mood: Sad.
Current Music: Within Temptation - Angels
If you have not been a villain at a certain point in time, you will never be a hero. And the day you are a hero, you may become a villain the next day.

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