A lot of the time it is easier for me to make belive and play the villain or the asshole... it's easier and I'm not accountable to anyone else but myself when i do that... but once agian in my fucking life I have responsibilities.... and while it rips out my heart that he's not here to enjoy himself hanging out with me.. i do have responsibilities to him and to others this summer. it's not about being angry and being Dr. Doom hiding in My room angry at the world, it's about the action i need to see in my life... it's time to do the things that need to be done in both my personal and professional life and make this shit work. I can be angry later i don't have time for that right now. it's time to protect what i have and protect what I want to have.. that little boy means everything to me and too much has been taking away from him, but i will continue to play the villain there for a moment longer if it makes it easier to rationalize everything away, but vindication is coming... soon.
Current Mood: Determined.
What you lookin' at? You all a bunch of fuckin' assholes. You know why? You don't have the guts to be what you wanna be. You need people like me. You need people like me so you can point your fuckin' fingers and say, "That's the bad guy." So... what that make you? Good? You're not good. You just know how to hide, how to lie. Me, I don't have that problem. Me, I always tell the truth. Even when I lie. So say good night to the bad guy! Come on. The last time you gonna see a bad guy like this again, let me tell you. Come on. Make way for the bad guy. There's a bad guy comin' through! Better get outta his way!
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