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Till All Are One...

I am very impressed by my experiences with everyone that helped today, it was fucking awesome and the people I have in my life for the most part i am grateful to have as helpers and it was very cool to Do the things I did and have everyone helping today, a Minor thing was missing and I really hope that in the future I get the chance to experience things like this with him... because goddamn it was fucking cool.. and it's something taken away just a little bit...but he would have enjoyed himself, I was impressed by how well it came together and i cannot wait for the next big show...All told today and yesterday had to be one the most fucking fun things I have done in a long fucking while... and to be honest... this is all due to my son, i would not be where i am right now in my life if i hadn't have made some hard choices last year.. but it worked out for the best... and it will continue to be... things like today dull the pain but he is not forgotten, and I wanted him there with me more than ever... I mean Fucking Serpentor, Jean Grey the Phoenix, and Rodimus Prime Signing autographs to start... need I continue? at least he has the autographs when he gets home and lots of pictures of his daddy. next year for sure... without question.

Current Mood: Happy.
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.

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