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Endless War...

Another day, Another battle.. the same fucking One. this is what My life has came to.. my entire life is fucking poison to everyone around me.. maybe i should stop having hopes and dreams of returning to what for me passes for a normal life... and just go live like a fucking hermit... or better yet.. I've had the abyss staring into me for so long it's still staring back.. just fade away.... I'm Done with the burning Out, Sick of fighting and always losing, yet every fucking time that I do, I always get back up stronger and Continue fighting, the fire, the phoniex, But somehow everytime i get back up from being knocked down just a little stronger I end up feeling weaker and even more sicker of fighting, but i will not let anyone else be affected because of me and my life.. i will choose to walk away, that is the story of my life... Wherever I may roam, it's better not to make attachments and fight my battles alone... it's something that I have had to do my entire life... But I know where the current War starts and Ends, A sea Of complacency is the reason I have not done more in the last little while and people around me are being affected, it's time agian to be on the attack, the battle is never fought on the sidelines... you have to take it to them.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
Current Music: Slayer - Seasons In The Abyss

A distant enemy is always preferable to one at the gate

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