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Dark Guardian...

I don't like standing in the shadows being the dark protector of everything good in my life and fighting every battle to protect those I care about... It seems like an eternal dark cloud follows my life and everyone around it and everything involved in my life turns to fucking shit... even when there is daylight i summarily not impressed by other's actions in my life and how it affects me... the last month has been very hard Likely for all of us because of a demonic dark cloud hovering above... I am frustrated by the way things have been and the way things are.. i am frustrated by watching someone's actions affect my life when it should be my little boy I'm hanging out with all summer and not being frustrated and depressed by everything around me.. this isn't fucking fair.. I did everything right, i went to school, i got the good job, i tried to be a good husband and father..only to get stabbed in the back, yet fucking assholes get everything and they get easily.. everything I've ever had I've had to fight for, and yet i'm still falling into a black hole... and the darkness follows me everywhere.

Current Mood: Sad.
When a man's heart is full of deceit, it burns up, dies, and a dark shadow falls over his soul. From the ashes of a once great man has risen a curse, a wrong that must be righted. We look to the skies for a vindicator, someone to strike fear into the black hearts of the same men who created him. The battle between good and evil has begun. Against an army of shadows comes a dark warrior. The purveyor of good, with a voice of silence and a mission of justice.

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