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Lone Wolf II

The enemy to be feared most is one who wears the face of a friend.

I am done with trusting people in this city or Doing anything for them, I have bigger battles to fight and bigger fish to fry than pathetic little people that think they can intimidate by getting a cop involved to threaten me or steal a large amount of my belongings because your a pyschopathic man child with entilement issues, there are other answers for dealing with that, right now I'm going to attempt to do the right and legal thing but this is ridiculous, i trust some new and it's the same old refrain, i get stabbed in the fucking back.. of course in the grand scheme of things this betrayal is a joke compared to real world issues and betrayals and it will be forgotten as soon as i start concentrating on the wars i have to really fight.... it's just an annoying sting, I help someone out numerous times over the last four months, and i get fucked over for it, i should have known better given all my experinces in the last few years.... but i didn't and the blame for that lose solely on me.. well now there is but one choice and one choice alone and that is to not trust anyone and go it alone... let's face it I have real enemies out there that need to be dealt with and this joke of a situation isn't even worth my full attention or anger unless it is contiunally brought to my attention or otherwise dealt with, it's pretty sad to say that someone isn't enough of a man to deal with his fucking problems and instead uses the fucking authoritys to fucking threaten me to leave him alone because i made a phone call and sent an email.. honestly that does nothing but inspires me to get off my ass and go about creating Hell and dealing with things regarding your sad pathetic life rather than sitting around and doing nothing and letting you and your pathetic little situation pass me by because other more important things takes precendance... when you play with the tail of the dragon, be careful of the flame.. you were a mere speck of dusk covered by my apathy on sunday night... but now you have made things personal and i will do what i have to legally to protect myself. on a person level i have my freind and my family that i have trusted for many years and for them and them alone i will continue to trust as for new people or anyone else that want's a peice of me because of this stupid thing i have been doing for the last two years? there is a reason it's truly ending, there is a reason it's truly done and this is just another reminder of something that used to a nessasary evil how unnessary it is anymore... fuck everyone, people are asshole and shouldn't be trusted esp. if you have something to offer them, it's much easier to be a lone wolf and only trust myself, that's the way it has to be from now on... I've felt myself growing angrier and darker for a long time this is just another reason not to to trust not to care and most importantly not help out others that are only around for their own self preservation. i think the thing that once agian bother's me the most isn't that my belongings were taken but the fact that a number of the items once agian were for more son, thankfully there are a lot more of where they came from, and truthfully material items are worthless,it's more about what i have and will do for him... but patience level for trusting anyone is very fucking low right now... but i'm used to it, my entire life has been a litany of people i once thought were close freinds stabbing me in the back... that's why i have so few.. and the ones i do have proved their worth, over and over agian. the one's i don't have also proven how little they are not worth, just add another one to the list.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Fake Freinds, Joan Jett and The Blackhearts

Be careful who you trust because as quickly as they say they're your friend is how quick they can turn their backs on you.

Trust is hard to find these days. It's like once you begin to trust someone, they eventually show you why you shouldn't have

A doubtful friend is worse than a certain enemy. Let a man be one thing or the other, and we then know how to meet him.

Every time I trust someone new, they end up reminding me why I shouldn't trust anyone at all.

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