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The Ghost of Christmas Past.

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.

This has been a happy enough christmas and I am for once looking forward to the next step a little bit more than maybe i was a few months ago, there are things that confuse the hell out of me and some serious pain in my past. but i also have good people and good friends around and that's important because I don't know how much i could have survived this long without the people in my life, something in still missing and that's something that should never have been taken away but it's getting to a point where that isn't my sole motivation in life and I am becoming happier and more positive, i have options going into the new year, something i didn't have in the darkness of the beginning of last year.

Current Mood: Happier.
I would say happy new year but it's not happy; it's exactly the same as last year except colder.

A year of ending and beginning, a year of loss and finding...and all of you were with me through the storm. I drink your health, your wealth, your fortune for long years to come, and I hope for many more days in which we can gather like this.

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