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The Last Black Christmas II

Everyone thinks that “I'm happy and fine on this Christmas Eve” but look a lil closer, you will see tears in my eyes.

I am happy and surrounded by loved ones, and there are reasons to look forward to the new year, but something is still missing and that's not right, I Swore a year ago that this wouldn't be another missed Christmas and there is something hollow inside me that can't be filled by anyone or anything I do... there are positive things in my life over the last year, but it's still a empty holiday without him, At least I got to see someone else open some neat presents by proxy and will be celebrating my Xmas with family tonight, but it fucking sucks that once again I have to do it alone... again, four years is a very long time, it will not make it to fucking five.. Merry Christmas Son, I love you. Santa brought gifts under the tree just like he does every year, they will be here when you get home.

Current Mood: Sad, Sick.
Current Music: Motorhead, End of Time.

Just becuz we dont have together on this Christmas, doesn’t mean we don’t love each other, Miss you a lot and Merry Christmas.

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