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The War XXXII: Aggressive Negotiations

Always leave a way out, unless you really want to find out how hard a man can fight when he’s nothing to lose.


It's Time for me to advance the fucking Plot and make things happen, there is only one way I know how to get fucking things done and get results, That's with a size 11 wide boot being kicked into a a door, I know I am an Intimidating motherfucker. there's No time left to be Anything But when both Ally's and enemies ain't done shit just hoping i'd fuck off and go away. it's time for me to take matters into my own fucking hands and make things happen, I don't have any fear of anyone or anything or the consquences for myself. the only person I'm worried about it affecting is my little boy. It is the only thing I fear these days Is losing him completely. the fact that in recent days it's been made clear in my mind that I am the only one Legally that has his Intrests At heart, and the people that are so called Helpers are just looking after their own Intrests and likely their own pocketbook, I have to be me, I have to be the person I have always been, the person I tried to hide for a long time from and be the shiny happy person, that person is dead, all that is left is the black soul within, the Creature that Might not be quite human, A beast of darkness anger and Rage, Whatever I am is a reflection of everything I have Experinced and who I have become, I can use that dark person to Fight for the right things because it's all that matter's to me. there is nothing left to me, There is no joy, there is no Light at the end of the tunnel without Him, when I am stripped down to the creature inside, this monster Born, Based and baptized in fucking fire All I have is the fucking battle... And Never fucking backing down. I'm fucking sick of everyone in my personal and professional life that isn't 100% behind me, I'm getting to the fucking point where I need and have to only look out for number one... that creature born of hate and fire doesn't have time for so called freinds, If you look thru my past history you will realize i never kept anyone that i didn't fucking need in my life anywhere but my rear view window, at this point in my life the fact that solitutude is better than fairweather freinds and people that don't need to be involved in my fucking life. i have made mistakes trusting people and that has ended recently because at this point there is only one person I need to be, Only one person I need to take care of that I need to that isn't me is my son, Everyone else can go fuck themselves. Legal or otherwise.... you either stand behind me and support me or stay the fuck out of my way... or end up in the crosshairs....those are the fucking options.

Live with it.

Current Mood: In A Dark Place.
Current Music: Eminem, '97 Bonnie and Clyde

Backing yourself into a corner is a terrible strategy, in that it leaves you nowhere to run. But it’s brilliant in that it brings out the fierce in you, because you are forced to fight.

War is nothing more than organized insanity. That's why crazy and unexpected tactics work most of the time. When they don't, we won't live to tell about it.

A good strategy and solid play doesn't revolve around tricks. It doesn't revolve around surprises. It doesn't revolve around having hidden information. It revolves around very solid strong timing, and crisp execution.

The only teacher that's worth anything to you is your enemy.

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