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I will name him George, and I will hug him and pet him and squeeze him... And never let him go....

It is both amazing, and incredibly sad that one of my friends that understands me most is on another continent.. the last two weeks have been amazing and I had trouble walking away from the airport once again and I cannot wait to enjoy his company again.. even when things didn't go right we still made the most of it and had a blast.. i am really glad that over these years he has been there for me, and the fact that i have done the same for him speaks to probably one of my most enduring friendships.. I didn't want him to go.. and i hope he gets home warm and safely... i am reflecting on my life and things like the experiences shared with him and am probably going to make some changes in my life... but it's about the things we've done.. and i have had some of the most seriously amazing experiences in my life once again with him... i hope he feels the same way... now it's time to go to my boring life agian and face reality.. and while the weight will be easier i will miss having him beside me to talk to, to joke, to chill, to just generally have fun with.... we created memories, we will create many more...

Current Mood: Happy.

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