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The 40th Day III: Suicide Squad


There are days and memories that remind me of the man and the father that I am, what my family did for me for my birthday speaks so much louder than words, and matters so fucking much. I am a good father, a good friend and a good man, the people I love and that choose to love me are testament to that. The fact that I have adventures along the way that others take as at the least exaggeration, and others claim that I am just fucking lying? That's bullshit, if I said I did something I did it, I've lived a charmed and epic life full of great moments, tonight was one if those, seeing a superhero film I had watched filmed on young street where I once live as a homeless youth, that was lightning in a bottle, seeing a movie filmed with my best friend from England on it's last night which was my last epic surprise, having him come back to see it with me in the theater, that speaks to friendship and character. Which if course I have none of, that's sarcasm BTW. Only one thing could have made this experience better, and that time will come.

In the near future I need to make some hard and fast decisions about my next steps. But the fact that I have some moments where the light truly shined in, will make some of those thunderous footsteps of change in my life seem a little simpler. I do know and understand what it takes to be truly happy, and I'm sick of these little rays of sunshine being the little breaks in the darkness, it's time to face the sun on a regular basis, it's time to be happy, it's time to stop dwelling and living in the past. Live for today, you don't know what tomorrow brings... I'm grateful for my family and friends, I haven't had this much fun or been this happy in a long while. There are simply amazing things that need to be done and enjoyed, and sometimes in these moments I just need to savor the fine wine that is the great moments in my life and not fucking dwell on the bitter taste of the rest of it.

Current Mood: Happy.

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