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The Chess Game III

Patience is power.
Patience is not an absence of action;
rather it is "timing"
it waits on the right time to act,
for the right principles
and in the right way

I am not surprised by today's news, you are stalling and we are playing the waiting game.. it's unsurprising that you play this game and continue to play this fucking game.. your actions are constantly predictable... it's just unsettling to the dark areas that my mind goes thru, but when this is all has been set and done at this point it will have been six long fucking years, experiences that i can never have with my son, that's what you have taken away, i can't believe that you have such disrespect for the family court system you used to take him away from and destroy my relationship with that you didn't even bother the last two times.. it shows your true lack of respect for anything but yourself, I'm not surprised at all. i know that your agenda will always be to waste time and to lie to him until he is an adult, at this point i am prepared for that..I'm well of aware of the person you are... you're actions this morning are just another move in our endless chess game and they will continue as long as the war is fought, nothing you do surprises me anymore.. it's always going to be about you and not about him.... that's why i have to be the one who fights and doesn't walk away... but i don't mind waiting.. one way or another one day there will be a fucking ending... it's not me whose actions will be judged at the end.. it will be yours.

Current Mood: Angry

I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.

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