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The 40th Day

Sport the war, war support
The sport is war, total war
When victory's a massacre
The final swing is not a drill
It's how many people I can kill

There are a lot of conflicting emotions right now swimming around in my head, I'm both happy and excited about spending two weeks with my best freind and having crazy adventures and I am angry and bitter because the one thing i want most for my fucking birthday I won't have, I've been silent for a while on here for a reason because of that anger, I didn't want that bitch inside my mind, but you know what fuck it, I'm turning 40 tommorow, I'm gonna fucking enjoy it and live my life like i always have with no fucking regrets and No Remorse. i don't like the shitty hand i've been dealt but I can roll the dice, Nothing's over while I'm breathing and the fact i am and will be celebrating turning 40 tommorow, means i'm breathing, and it's with a lot of reluctance i say that because 20 years ago or so i never figured I'd have a family or hit forty, i figured i would have flamed out in a blaze of glory a long time ago, the thing is, true surviors they rise from the ashes, like a death metal phoenix, I may have burned in a blaze of glory, but i survived and im still here, still fucking standing still fighting... for the things i want, foe the people I love, above all, for my son, Because he should be here with me right now, and he is not. i don't mind burning out, But I will Never fade away.

Current Mood: Excited, Angry.

Propaganda war ensemble
Burial to be
Bones shining in the night
In blood laced misery
Campaign of elimination
Twisted psychology
When victory is to survive
And death is defeat

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