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The Red Pill.

This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.

I am happy, I have made my choice, the only one I was ever going to make. It was fucking inevitable that I was gonna choose the one with less drama and the one who truly loves me as i am and isn't going to force me to change based on some nostalgia and needs... I Don't need anything in this life except someone who cares and appreciates me deeply. i would rather have a moment of happiness, than spend an eternity being miserable. I don't look back much and when i do I am always reminded how miserable i was.. I don't have the same emotions when I'm with her, and the fact that this relationship has been years in the making because for a long time there was something that is and was something more important is why i am with her now, I'm Sorry for the hell i put her thru the last few weeks but i have moved past that now and i know exactly where I'm headed and with who.

Current Mood: Happy.

I may care about things more than I ever have before, because there's so much more to care about here. On the other hand, I really don't give a shit what happens, 'cause it just doesn't matter anymore.

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