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Boys of Summer II


 


You and you’re actions have made you’re decision for you. I waited a year since my last birthday for you and was honest and true. I don’t think I’m going to wait anymore. I’m going to find someone else just like you constantly do and move on. You’re ring might be here and waiting but I don’t know if I’m going to be. That’s where things stand right now.


You’re actions on my birthday and our anniversary determined this. A man might love you and be willing to be very fucking patient but there comes a time when all of that has to end.


I am at the end of my rope and I need to see some light at the end of the road. I thought it was you. I thought wrong. 


I want to have fun and be with my friends. Not be tied to an albatross twenty two years old that doesn’t want me as much as I want her. I know my value. I am better than that.


It’s time for me to focus on that. Not a moment we had 22 years ago. I needed you and you were never there. You chose others not me. I get the point. I’m unwanted. It’ll stay that way. Story of my life. Constant abandonment. I never expected you to stay anyways. That would be too simple. 

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