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Born to be Epic



'Bob...' 'But my name's Billy...'


I will always be more interesting than you. I have better friends, more supportive freinds and family, I have everything I need in my life and I’m happy and at peace with everything around me. I get to do things and have epic adventures. And there is always a fucking story.


This weekend I got to shake hands with an Olympic gold medalist and he agreed that he would have went to the chili peppers concert I went to over meeting him back in August too. That was pretty cool.


Being able to crack a joke on one of my idols from late 90s wrestling was pretty cool as well. Hope I didn’t offend you too much Bob Gunn.


I can do things. The fact I can do these things is a freedom I never had for years because I was chasing things I was never going to have and fighting battles I was always going to lose. I still had adventures then but some of it was survival and it was a different kind of animal. Now it’s about having fun rather than living day to day.  


The fact that I don’t care as much about material things and I am more about the memories makes it easier when I do want something physical to appreciate the budgeting for the item. I’d rather be with my freinds and doing these amazing things and creating memories.


There’s only one person missing, I may be happy, but all it takes is one Facebook memory to remind me how much I miss my son and how much I think he would enjoy doing this kind of thing with my crew. One day maybe.


Maybe he’ll think his dads a big dork with his do it yourself cosplay, maybe he’ll appreciate it. Either way he’ll know I was both having fun and missing him terribly.


...but he’s the only thing I miss. 

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