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I’m Busy too.



You’re not the only one with a life. I am going to hang around and acknowledge the ones that love me and care about me and do legendary and interesting things. I’m not going to wait on a lifetime of what ifs. I have plans and I have things I want to do by 50. It’s time to start doing them instead of letting you be a distraction.


I don’t have time for you’re what if bullshit. You are a great part of my life but you are not the only part of my life. The sooner I focus on what’s important now the better my mental health will be in the long term. When and if you’re ready, maybe I’ll be available. 


Maybe like 3 years ago I won’t be. I’m not making choices waiting on you anymore. Not that I ever did. I do things for me, always. It’s an all or nothing situation for me too. You’re either in my life or you aren’t. Not just in orbit. I’ll focus on the ones that are in my life for now.


I’m not mad, I’m not angry. I’m just at peace. I’m frustrated you can’t find the same and I am worried about some of you’re behaviours and actions of late. But you’ve made it clear I’m not a daily part of you’re life so I’ll be here if needed but I won’t let you’re erratic behaviours and decisions disturb my happy moments or my peace. When you’re ready, you’ll call.


Current mood: content.


"One day you will ask me 

which is more important? 

My life or yours? 


I will say mine and 

you will walk away 

👣

Not knowing that 

You are my life."


♥️Khalil Gibran (1883-1931)


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