I burn bridges. I light gasoline on the bridge and walk away and never look back. Remember that. You are the one only time I looked back and all it is was a trail of ashes. Yes we had passion but it was a self destructive phoenix flame that constantly kept self igniting.
It’s not good for either of us. I may love you, but I don’t like you very much. And I despise how I’m a fair weather friend in you’re life. Disposable. Only needed when you need something. What about when I needed you, you know what you’d never know. Pride.
I would never give you the credit to ask you for anything in my life even when I was at my worst and in a private hell. I endured alone. Because I have the strength to. A strength that you fucking lack. My strength that you need when you’re feeling down. But it’s a flighting emotion, it never stays.
You’ve asked me to stay and I’m grateful for that, but it’s not longer you that I’m staying for. I have other responsibilities and people that are important to me. You are merely an afterthought in my life the same way you are. You have you’re wish about me being permantly tied to Hamilton. But that has nothing to do with you. And the happier of the memory’s I make with him the less and less I need you.
Our memories will never fade. But I’m where I’m supposed to be. Taking care of who I need to for this moment. I don’t need you. I never needed you, I just wanted you. And that’s the problem. You never wanted me. I’m not disposable.
I’m fire. I burn bright and burn out of every relationship. I thought you’d be the one to endure the flames.
You proved otherwise.
When I’m well and truly done with someone it doesn’t take much for them to become a ghost, that’s the moment we are in right now. You are becoming a ghost agian. I know my fucking worth. I know who I am.
I never needed you. And if you get forgotten again and I make it difficult for you to make contact again, so be it.
I can always find you. I disappear you’ll never find me. That’s just the way it is.
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