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Apathetic.


There are reasons you weren’t there. Even tho he should have been. I am not even agree at you anymore. I’m just apathetic. There’s nothing to you’re endgame. And you’re not my family. No more than I am, the difference is regardless of where we stood when you needed me I would have been by your side...


... it’s one of many reasons why I will never fucking need you. You always treated me and my other loved ones as something to discard. I was never a priority. And the coldness you have shown in the last year and a half when I needed you speaks volumes. Truth be told I didn’t. I have good support circle and I know my value. You’re aren’t part of either of those. You never have been you never will be.


You may be the only one to mourn me when I go, but that’s because I don’t want anyone else too and it’s you’re own selfishness that will make you want to.


You weren’t even invited, and his grandson should have been. But that’s on you. That’s always going to be on you. I’ve made my peace with it.


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