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I’m fucking Busy.




One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching.


I don’t have time for you and you’re bullshit. True colours were shown on my birthday. I’m not a kitten that you can toy with you’re claws. I’m a grown man and I don’t tolerate bullshit from a girl that should have grown up a long time ago. You drew you’re line in the sand, and now I will ignore you. Because you proved exactly what all of this is.


A momentary distraction to make you feel better.


Sorry I’m busy doing cool

And amazing things with my fucking freinds to Ever tolerate that nonsense.


I’m living my life. That’s what I do. And I do it with style and I live an epic fucking life. No compromises, no backing down. And I am who I am. Be jealous all you want. I’m all of our dreams fulfilled save one. I have the freedom to be the person we both always wanted to be and not answer to anyone. I didn’t then. I don’t now. 


Meanwhile you are shackled to a town and a past I hardly remember. You may be my true home. But there’s a reason I only bother with niagara for an event. I have lost hope of ever coming home so instead I live in my world. A world of my creation. A world of chaos. 


But it’s fun as fuck going down that rabbit hole. Wish you could join me, but that’s you’re choice. You haven’t grown up yet. I doubt you ever will. Once I wanted to settle

Down. Now I wanna be the self fuffiling prophecy and keep running the motor hard till I explode.


I have lived a life worth living and I have fought my battles.


When it comes to the end and final judgement can you say the same fucking thing? Or will U regret?


Keep in mind, I regret nothing.

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