There were at least 3 songs tonight that i could have and would have popped out the ring out with. each of them had significance. but we aren't, and possibly will never be there yet. Our lives are drifting apart again and what was once important to me in regaining, is now becoming an afterthought again. I am happy and satisfied with my current lot in life and just being in orbit isn't enough to make a big sweeping change. i will be there soon to keep my fucking word but i have no expectations. but it would have been nice tonight to ask during why can't this be Love or or when its love.
sorry babe, they didn't play hot for teacher. But we aren't ready regardless. one day ill just find another moment. but tonight? might have been a nice moment. first time i regret not pursuing you harder to come to something with me.
then agian, just like whatever i am in your life, you are an afterthought in mine... i just thought of you a lot during some of our love songs, But its still meaningless...
unless something changes, if anything ever does. all I'm saying is that there was a pretty moment available... but we aren't people for pretty moments are we? we are a fractured Fucking fairy tale where the best we can say about each other is that we are the least worst options in each others lives long term.
it still would have been nice to ask you tonight, just to see what you would say. i thought of you a lot. but you weren't at my side, so whatever pipe dream i had, it was just an illusion. but it was a nice thought that one of these songs could have been the one.
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