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Im good with my Friends and always doing epic shit… I’m not sitting at home pining for any lost Lenore’s, I’m fuckin’ busy doing anything that I want to, over and over and over agian. The fact that I am losing track of the last memory before I even get to the next one should be a fucking tell tale sign that I’m enjoying my life with no regrets…


I spent a long enough time in my life being miserable and waiting for things to fix themselves if I fought hard enough for them, instead just enough passed for me to be able to look past them with no regrets. It’s better this way, it’s always been better this way when it’s just me and those I choose to have around me…


There are moments my life was less complicated, but i would rather have had the experiences I’m having now than staying stagnant and waiting for the day that never came. I know where my choices have led me

And at the end of the day, I’ll stand by making the right choices even for the wrong reasons. Not all of them were wrong. But I waited too long to make a change in my life…  

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