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Stranger In A Strange Land.



I am happy, I get to do epic shit like this with the ones I love on a regular basis, the fact that iron maiden is one of his favorites and I was able to do it as one last birthday gift makes me happy. I wish that I could do more with him but these special moments mean something to. The only thing missing is having my son beside us enjoying the show,  but that is a choice that is not mine. He’d be welcome to come, every damn time. But I am not going to sit at Home weeping and waiting for the writing on the wall. Im going to live and enjoy myself. I sacrificed enough years not doing anything and standing still trying to do the right thing. 


Now I am doing the right thing, and I’m having fun and enjoying my life with those that are surrounding me. I choose me and I have no fucking regrets choosing me. It’s about being at peace with myself and the ones I care for in this lifetime. One troublesome piece has been swept off the chess board. And trust me that shadow loomed large for a great many years, and I have other shadows that still dwell. But regardless of where I stand with some people in my life, I know that other shadow would be happy that I’m successful and doing things with my life and enjoying myself. I just wish her daughter and her grandson were at my side. Maybe tomorrow, maybe never. But at the end of the day, I’ve made peace will all of that. 


Im going to have fun, I’m going to deal with all my responsibilities and im going to do it all with style and class. You can either follow behind, be by my side or be the fuck forgotten. 

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