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The In-Between.



Sometimes I am reminded that all we truly are is a simple set of goodbyes. I’m trying to be more but right now we are just in that place we always get to. The In between something and nothing. While I’m good either way, the heart wants more and will always long for it. That’s why I try. That’s why I’m trying now. 


I don’t know where we stand. And I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. For some reason you want to be in my life tho. I just cant stand you just being an accessory to it. 


I can’t pretend to be something we are not. And you need to figure out what’s best for you, me in your life or not. It’s been a lifetime of bad decisions for both of us. I’m not sure I want to continue in that same path. It’s just all bad road.


The key is getting away from it all I agree. 


The only problem is that we are at a crossroads and i don’t think either of know the next step. 


The only reality is that I want us both to be happy, and I think we are better off happier together. But that’s your decision, you don’t have to justify anything to me, and you know that I won’t to you. 


I just want to stop waiting on the next step. One way, one day, this will end. Lets hope it’s the desired result.

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