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One is learning to balance the darker sides of one's self issues and behaviors by moderating everything that one does including the sleep and the drink.. but it is ridiculous when one has to deal with nonsense after an agreement has been made and the person who made the fucking agreement decides a few days later to not honour it and then decides to get into a screaming match with me after i've worked a fucking long saturday shift... at this point i am hoping i can the apartment in the north end and begone from the hellhole where me and the little one currently reside... a decade ago one owuld have smashed holes into the walls and smashed every window... she is very lucky i am no longer that person... i don't like being judged for something i'm not becuase on my freetime and in my work life i may not confirm to everyone's perfect little life... 1. In free time i dress as i choose. 2. I work a midnight shift so my freetime hours are diffrent than others and complaining that the tv is on low all night is fucking bullshit.... i don't sleep nights if i have to go to work the next night you moron. but of course this is why i'm moving and why i'm done with her... hopefully tommorow i will have good news about the new place.

Me? I'm dishonest, and a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly... stupid.

Current Mood: Disillusioned.

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