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Captive Honour


One should not want to go to work because of diffrences between the way someone is treating a client... the biggest frustration is to be working side by side when it's happening...and not being able to do anything about it because of the fact that person is a supervisior and has a big mouth..I am really starting to think about what side of the fence I should be in this industry.. i am really thinking of going back to university in the new year and being able to teach,I guess i should start writing agian. the goal is still to one day work at the children's advocate but the demon's are surfacing agian.. this time out of concern not out of anger or frustration... and it's not me that's being affected it's someone it should not be happening to... but then agian it's all a system of control to pump out politically correct drones for the private sector right?

Madness comes, and madness goes
An insane place, with insane moves
Battles without, for battles within
Where evil lives and evil rules
Breaking them up, just breaking them in
Quickest way out, quickest relief wins
Never disclose, never betray
Cease to speak or cease to breathe
And when you kill a man, you're a murderer
Kill many, and you're a conqueror
Kill them all...Ooh...Oh you're a god!


Current Mood: Frustrated.
Current Music:Thou Art a Shield for Me, Betrayer.
http://www.459.betrayer.ca/cgi-bin/dl.cgi?id=013

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