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Eye of the Beholder


The more i think about things and ponder them the more i feel it's the things I do that are important rather than the fact that i may have any longevity or impact on lives past the day at hand... i think that if continue to dwell on the negatives i will end up stressing and wearing myself out, that leads to burnout... seeing how this is the only job i really ever wanted to do burning myself out is not a good idea... yes i can write, yes with university there is a piossibilty of a second career but i really don't want to be middle aged and going into a new job market agian...better to be good at one thing than be a journeyman career wise for the rest of my life.

Current Mood: Reflective.
Often the difference between a successful person and a failure is not one has better abilities or ideas, but the courage that one has to bet on one's ideas, to take a calculated risk - and to act.

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