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House of Cards.


Another wonderful shift from hell, i am seriously wondering what the fucking point to this place is at all.. the kids are obviously out of control and it's obvious that the vocal members of the staff are being isolated from the other's in terms of behaviors because it's much easier to maintain the status quo if the disgrunteled members of staff are isoalted on the graveyard shift...working a day shift with the other night staff was very telling.. esp. when the shit hit the fan, it's very telling how little the clients respect the people currently on regular nights, and it doesn't help when i'm the one that has to handle all the phone calls and all the paperwork, i'm the most illerate person on the staff and i carry the bulk of the nonsense after working the graveyard. i'm not surprised by today';s behaviors and it's almost expected... when the shit hit's the fan the whole house of cards comes falling down, i no longer see a future here and that's been coming for a long time.... and it's not the kids... i could bitch about them but what's the point, it's not their fault that they are fucked up, someone made them that way, and the fact that they are instituionilized is not helping them at all... it's just making em worse and bitter.

Current Mood: Tired, Bitter.
Current Music: Cemetery gates, Pantera
There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.

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