One has to wonder what the next step in his life is going to be when somone who i Hold near and dear to me in my life decides she basiccly wants to affect my life completely and change it so that she is agian the number one priority in my life, I am here, you just need to be availible, the fire has never gone out inside my heart it has just stopped burning a little because I have had other pleasures and people in my life, you being a full time part of my life agian esp. with both of us having children is confusing and would affect my life, I would problay make some life altering decisions because of you but I would have to weigh everything out in my mind, I am currently happy with my life, maybe not employment wise but I like who I am, I really think I'd have to write both you and the mother of my child letter's speaking truly from the heart before I can totally make the next decision and go forward, i am aware of the ticking time bomb going off and every day we get a little older, and I get to play a little more of the loner everyday, I would rather find happiness and be at peace with the one person i can truly ever trust than to deal with the unknowing of whatever's going to come next.... yes, you were a total mind fuck this week, and i have thought about it a lot, I would have to make a lot of decisions and some changes to accomadate this, but if and when the door possibly becomes open you know that i'll be right there for you in whatever form you wish me to be, I think that you know exactly at this point what my expectations are tho, and i've been waiting on that for almost 20 years... i'd rather be with someone that makes me happy than miserable in an exsitance with someone who does not.Current Mood: Nostaligic.
A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.
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