I don't want to go home.

i really need to make some decisions based on what is the possible situion for my son, it is probaly healther for us to elsewhere than hamilton becuase other places he has a really close freind and he is extremely happy being a role model for her and showing her how to do stuff, I am more refreshed from a weekend here than i have been in a long time from time off from work, all the stress melts away when I am away, it's possible that their are jobs up here and sharing a house might make more sense than paying thru the nose for a basement apartment, the kids are so happy together and chasitity's daughter is so cute and so attached to my little man it's awesome.. I really gotta decide the next stage in my and his lifes because i would rather he have someone around to grow up with than an assortment of kids in the neighboorhood he really can't get to know becuase he's only there a few days a week. I have had a lot of fun here and we haven't done much but just sit around and let the kids play.

Current Mood: Happy.
Old men can make war, but it is children who will make history.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Dying False King.

I am a ghost and a spectre in a lot of peoples lives that I have touched. Some I shouldn’t be, and some I have willingly walked away for my own mental health. I’m starting to get to that point with many things in my life agian. I thought it would be easier to live a simple life and just have fun but I think it’s harder than when I worked my face off as a father. At least then my enemies didn’t pretend to be my freinds and the world wasn’t falling apart slowly. Just my world. I think I prefer whatever that was then compared to what the world is now. I have my own life and adventures and I don’t need anyone that doesn’t want or need to be in my life. I have fun with what I do and don’t let negative sources affect my life. If you’re gonna drag me down, I’ll be gone. That’s how it works. You’re not going to disturb my fucking peace. That’s what the metal shows are for. That is anger’s release. Plus to have fun.

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