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The Mission.

Don't be so quick to sell your soul in hopes of gainful employment, It can be worse than staring into the abyss of nothingness employment wise, Right now I am commiting career suicide at midnight minium wage, but that might change tommorow but i fucking doubt it, Worrying so much about a job you will be a subserviant little drone to isn't a good thing, actually wanting one is even worse, there are days i don't even break even to what i would be getting with the broken wheel on ODSP.... there are a few bright spots in my life but a lot of what i endure right now is darkness and abject hatred,I don't like my world and am desperatly trying to escape it, but for any of those people that truly know me they know that what I do for a living is a calling and it is a war, and I am merely on a fucking mission, one that never ends... of course sometimes it's hard to deal with, witness my descent into alcholism last year, of course that's ok, I'd rather dull the pain than actually face the fact that this may be the best I am capable of and that Tommrow it's more of the same, It's not like I'm actually expecting to make a diffrence ever, I'm merely a place holder until someone better comes along. Wish I could say that employment Was the only place i felt that way.

Current Mood: Depressed.
Current Music: The Mission, Queensryche.
They'll say my mission saved the world
And I stood proud
My mission changed the world
The underground will rise and
Save this world we'll all stand proud
Our mission changed the world, we'll change the world
We'll all stand proud

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