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End of All Hope

It's time to start feeling good about myself agian, I have plans to go away and recharge the batteries in this summer sun and enjoy myself on the river for a few weeks to a month, everything at home can take care of it itself seeing how the rent is paid and next months isn't an issue in a hurry... it's good to have people around me that care and are willing to have my side in this battle...I know i have the upper hand in this battle it's just the long wait that takes so damn long... maybe when i get home things will have improved to a point where things will slowly get back to normal, that's one of the reason i'm taking this break, to recharge batteries but also, get ready for the oncoming battle... i spent 5 years of my life in Windsor and all of my meaningful relationships outside of family, save that one, are from Windsor....it's time to go home for a while and be myself.

Current Mood: Hopeful.
The art of war is simple enough. Find out where your enemy is. Get at him as soon as you can. Strike him as hard as you can, and keep moving on.

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