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Shades of Grey

I don't see things in shades of grey most of the time, often i only see things in black or white, good or bad, but lately i am starting to only see things in a shade of red, Anger and depression seem to dominate my life and I know this is just another chapter in my life and that it will not last forever and things will go back to normal or as normal as they can be eventually, it's just so fucking hard hard waiting on that day.... the more things seem to move forward the more i seem to be in a repeating cycle of stall tactics from everyone involved.... It seems like when one has made a mistake it's very easy to hide behind it because No one will admit to that mistake... but you can drag a man down and destroy him by making said mistake.... but This was the game plan from the start to eliminate me from the equation, there are easier ways to destroy a man, but here's the thing, I don't surrender Ever, My life can be Hell, I've been there before, i will be there again, But backing down is not part of my vocabulary... Ever.

Current Mood: Depressed.
In preparing for battle I have always found that plans are useless, but planning is indispensable.

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