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Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici

MY next step is going away from here and finding myself for a little while instead of staying at home and allowing all this fucking pent up raage to consume what little sanity i have left, it's time to go home and enjoy myself for a minute and remeber who the fuck i really and stop pretending to be someone who passed away a long time ago.. i still have my ideals and i have my ethics but at the current moment it is time for the person who is sitting around patiently waiting for his life to move on without him like i have been doing for the past year, it's time for that person to die, it's summer time.. it's time while still being the person that i am and being the anarchist that i am, it's time to have a little fun, it's time to be around people that i feel comfortable with and happy with and enjoy some good memories, the thing that makes this harder and makes it sting a little is if circumstances were diffrent, me and little man would be making that trip and spending a week hanging out in windsor instead of me spending the summer there alone because at least away from here, i will less miserable.

Current Mood: Determined.
You wear a mask for so long, you forget who you were beneath it.

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