Age of Extinction

This summer is the place for a lot of endings, including both of the things that have been my driving force for the last few years... one has served it's purpose and has been corrupted by greed and the sad fact that i'm not the kind of person that is at all forgiving when you take things from me without payment, esp. when it's me doing all the work and doing all the sacrifice. and the other simply needed to eventually end you can't fight a battle forever, you can however still try to stall using your deceptions all long as you can, go ahead... it gives me more fucking ammunition against you, it's your chess move, your epic fail. it saddens me that their have now been two transformer's movies and god knows how many toys i have sold that my son has never seen with me... the time will return for cool things.. but it's frustrating that certain things have to be the way that they are.. but it is time for everything to end, one way or another.. All battles have served there purpose but there has to be an ending.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music:Megadeth - How The Story Ends

I'm a soldier. I'm made for war. Your kind simply... are not.

Poison the wells and scorch the earth, everything slashed and burnt
You may not like it now, but this is how the story ends

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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