Age of Extinction

This summer is the place for a lot of endings, including both of the things that have been my driving force for the last few years... one has served it's purpose and has been corrupted by greed and the sad fact that i'm not the kind of person that is at all forgiving when you take things from me without payment, esp. when it's me doing all the work and doing all the sacrifice. and the other simply needed to eventually end you can't fight a battle forever, you can however still try to stall using your deceptions all long as you can, go ahead... it gives me more fucking ammunition against you, it's your chess move, your epic fail. it saddens me that their have now been two transformer's movies and god knows how many toys i have sold that my son has never seen with me... the time will return for cool things.. but it's frustrating that certain things have to be the way that they are.. but it is time for everything to end, one way or another.. All battles have served there purpose but there has to be an ending.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music:Megadeth - How The Story Ends

I'm a soldier. I'm made for war. Your kind simply... are not.

Poison the wells and scorch the earth, everything slashed and burnt
You may not like it now, but this is how the story ends

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Franco Un-American.

I hate everyone. I just pretend I don’t because I’m chasing this false inner peace, thats being constantly eroded by outsiders. I am happy, I was at peace. But I do see my country and more importantly my city for what it’s for and I’m getting angry again. Maybe I do need to be angry. Maybe I do need to rebel. Maybe I do need to speak out despite the fact that it can be used against me and hurt those I love. Nothing fucking new to me. This apathy has gotten me nowhere, this trying to be at peace was working but maybe I need to be angry, maybe I need to rail agianst the things that once were right have now went wrong. This isn’t a world I want my child growing up in, and he’s grown. But this isn’t the world I promised him. This is something else. This city wants to pick a fight with me? Cool, I know what busybody bitch it is. Don’t think I will tolerate any threats to those that I care for or myself. You want to fucking start a war? Maybe it’s time for me to be angry again.

Someone Like You.

I know there are aspects of me, my personality and my life that you still like. It’s why you had my child and no one else’s. But I don’t colour within the lines enough for you to settle down with. That’s been acknowledged for two fucking decades. He’s an adult. I don’t need to answer to anyone anymore in my life. I wasted years fighting you when I should have been fixing you. But those moments are over. All of our moments are over. I don’t even need to be angry. I just need to be. You and I are toxic. I’m better off without you in my life. It’s a little less toxic when I’m the only one on the boat. Only the captain goes down with the ship. I’ve always known i would die alone anyhow. No family, no friend’s, no real accomplishments to my life. I wrote that line almost 30 years ago. Self fulfilling prophecy. At least that way when I implode no one gets hurts. I was a fool to think otherwise. I’ve left too much damage in my path. I just want to be happy and at peace whatev...

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