The War XIV: War Games

Thing's are getting Interesting, nothing like when lies and decepticon are about to blow up in your fucking face, there is a reason i leave things till they actually are needed, why create an issue when there doesn't need to be one, it's much better to choose your moments and make the situation work for you. No more games, No more of any of your excuses and bullshit, there's nothing you can hide behind here, it's going into the final end game and the more games you attempt to play the further you damn yourself, I have no problem's being judged for my behavior and action and my Actions speak for themselves, you don't think when it comes to the school board that both of us have connections to i can't do exactly what is needed? It's not about who I am, it's about what I do and how i go about doing it..I'm not the crazy, paranoid one playing mental mind games, all i seek is the information that is due to me and to be able to protect my son, once agian, once more i am reminded i9t's only about him, and even thru the shadows of confidentiality and the fact that I have to manipulate peices on a legal chess board once agian i am able to find that your web of shadows is crumbling, and your darkness will not keep, it's about the light that is a part of both of our lives... A light not matter how you try the part that is me will always be a part of me, No matter what, am not afraid of anyone, not a school, Not you, Not the system, I have no problem standing up to all of you for final victory, for it's only about him, and his best intrests, and sadly I do not think you have ever had that in consideration, the days are ticking down and you're end game is coming...the war will end, things will be set right... it's never been about you and me and it never will be...

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: This is war, Anti Nowhere League.
The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him.

There was no honor in war, less in killing, and none in dying. But there was true dignity in how men comported themselves in battle. And there was always honor to be found in standing for a just cause and defending the defenseless.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Franco Un-American.

I hate everyone. I just pretend I don’t because I’m chasing this false inner peace, thats being constantly eroded by outsiders. I am happy, I was at peace. But I do see my country and more importantly my city for what it’s for and I’m getting angry again. Maybe I do need to be angry. Maybe I do need to rebel. Maybe I do need to speak out despite the fact that it can be used against me and hurt those I love. Nothing fucking new to me. This apathy has gotten me nowhere, this trying to be at peace was working but maybe I need to be angry, maybe I need to rail agianst the things that once were right have now went wrong. This isn’t a world I want my child growing up in, and he’s grown. But this isn’t the world I promised him. This is something else. This city wants to pick a fight with me? Cool, I know what busybody bitch it is. Don’t think I will tolerate any threats to those that I care for or myself. You want to fucking start a war? Maybe it’s time for me to be angry again.

Someone Like You.

I know there are aspects of me, my personality and my life that you still like. It’s why you had my child and no one else’s. But I don’t colour within the lines enough for you to settle down with. That’s been acknowledged for two fucking decades. He’s an adult. I don’t need to answer to anyone anymore in my life. I wasted years fighting you when I should have been fixing you. But those moments are over. All of our moments are over. I don’t even need to be angry. I just need to be. You and I are toxic. I’m better off without you in my life. It’s a little less toxic when I’m the only one on the boat. Only the captain goes down with the ship. I’ve always known i would die alone anyhow. No family, no friend’s, no real accomplishments to my life. I wrote that line almost 30 years ago. Self fulfilling prophecy. At least that way when I implode no one gets hurts. I was a fool to think otherwise. I’ve left too much damage in my path. I just want to be happy and at peace whatev...

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