Age of Extinction II: Junkion

So all the piles of fucking garbage are gone and I am one step closer to divorcing myself from this mess of an income the last year has wraught, it has served it's purpose but it is time for it to be done, the fact that while yesterday payment was upfront and apprecited it clouded over the fact that other payment's are still owing which is a fucking joke... it's all about what the hell can you do for me lately, and it no longer serves my purposes minus the last big payout in a week or so... there are too many smoke and mirror games going on and I am still feeling very much taken advantage of and it's time for me to focus on the things that are important i have a war and a battle to fight and this is becoming more of distraction, I have real issues that are taking precidence, and they are frustrating as well.. i mean some so called cop has PTSD? What the fuck have my last few years been? I mean I grew up in the system in a warzone... and because of some fake and pathetic people in the system and this cop my life has been destroyed, i'm sure that fucking pig is not the only only one with post traumatic stress syndrome... he's not the only one that's seen war.. in fact I am quite fucking sure I have seen more of it... karma's a bitch and it will help my situation but it's still annoying that they managed to destroy my life so completely that only now we are reaching the end of it...

Current Mood: Pissed Off.
I come in peace. I didn't bring artillery. But I'm pleading with you, with tears in my eyes: if you fuck with me I'll kill you all.

Enemies,' the wizard said, 'are the price of honour.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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