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Dark Awakening

It is very clear this toy bullshit is Ending, and it's it is even more clear that i may be the one getting fucked over and getting the short end of the stick after losing quite a lot to the last year of this bullshit...I am fed up with it anyhow, it was at one point a neccasry evil but at this point decisions are being made to delibrately stab me in the back, and i don't like the icy feel of a cold knife behind me. this has never been the easiest experince for me and the rewards are no longer there, I am stick around for one more big pay day and then I am fucking done... i don't have the patience for a little egotistical man who only thinks about himself, I have enough of that type of personailty in my life without having to deal with one finacally for my livelyhood. it's not about the toys or the money anymore, it's about survival and pride and this fucking bullshit takes away from other things i could be doing... I am much happier hanging out in the summer sun trying to play guitar and find a few bucks than dealing with the wait on the stab in the back on this toy garbage. I have enough selfish people in my life I am forced to care about, I'm not about to care about someone who obviously doesn't care about and see's me only as a means to an end.. of course then agian, that's always been my attitude about this toy bullshit from the very beginning.

Current Mood: Annoyed.
Sometimes it is better to be known for one's enemies.

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