The War XIII: The End begins...

For today, in the name of freedom, we take the battle to her.
It's time to end this, there are some clear things on the road ahead and it's very clear that at this point in this game that things will end this summer one way or another, it's going to be very interesting at this point what the end game ends up being, but it is coming, there is no stopping it now, at least for now I am focused on the end game and for every ending i am prepared at the end of the day it is about one person, only one person, not me, not her, only him... i didn't create this war but i will see it thru to the end and the unevitable conclusion, for too long things have been stalled, today, the future that ends... it's about doing the right thing by him, and only that, it's not about anger anymore or hatred, only the part I was born to play, Being his father, nothing else... I made a phone call today that I was very afraid to make but it is time to get past my fears and past my hatred and past my anger... it's time to take the battle to her, it's time to end this. it's not about her delusions or her issues, it's not about whatever made up anger and hatred she has towards me, it's only about him. I wish she would realize that.

Current Mood: Determined.
One person's craziness is another person's reality.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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