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The War XIII: The End begins...

For today, in the name of freedom, we take the battle to her.
It's time to end this, there are some clear things on the road ahead and it's very clear that at this point in this game that things will end this summer one way or another, it's going to be very interesting at this point what the end game ends up being, but it is coming, there is no stopping it now, at least for now I am focused on the end game and for every ending i am prepared at the end of the day it is about one person, only one person, not me, not her, only him... i didn't create this war but i will see it thru to the end and the unevitable conclusion, for too long things have been stalled, today, the future that ends... it's about doing the right thing by him, and only that, it's not about anger anymore or hatred, only the part I was born to play, Being his father, nothing else... I made a phone call today that I was very afraid to make but it is time to get past my fears and past my hatred and past my anger... it's time to take the battle to her, it's time to end this. it's not about her delusions or her issues, it's not about whatever made up anger and hatred she has towards me, it's only about him. I wish she would realize that.

Current Mood: Determined.
One person's craziness is another person's reality.

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