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Remnants of War

I need to focus and finish the game, there is nothing left... anything that has been a necessary evil until recently has been just that.it's time to let that end post july and focus on greater things... I know that sometimes i'm not perfect in my life and It's time to wage the only battle i know how and reach it's final conclusion. there is only the one thing left.I should never need to remind myself of that, It should always be forefront of my mind... Of late i have been a little lost, whether it be the toy thing or the sadness of my life and the ruin of my current social life... it's the only thing left.. i have a pattern of self destruction in my life but the one thing i have never done wrong is fighting for my son, as long as my heart beats that will never change. it's not about me, it's never going to be about me. the other things in my life have been distractions but it's time to take things to the the next step the last step, time to end this fucking nightmare.... time to end the game.

Current Mood: Depressed.
Current Music: Metallica, One
bravery doesn't mean you aren't scared. It means you go anyway.

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