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Priorities II...

A DEFINITION NOT FOUND
IN THE DICTIONARY

Not leaving: an act of trust and love,
often deciphered by children

I haven't forgotten where i stand with the other important things in my life either. I have been hit by a double whammy of things to deal with right now and it's difficult to process everything. but i'm still here. I'm still trying to be the man I've always been. I'm still not backing down but I'm done fighting, It's not in his best interest. The best thing i can do is be there for him, the same place I've always been. just now it's without most of the anger. I've fought for far too long for any of that to matter. I just need to be there for him now, whatever that entails.. I'm trying.

I'm very confused and it is a moment that i wasn't expecting at this point in my life, but i was always ready for. it's just whatever it is. All i can do is be the man and do the right thing as far as i perceive it, there's not much else i can do with the card the three of us have been dealt. Not sure i want to look back at all... but i do want to look forward, whatever the hell that means.

I'm ready for the next step. I hope he is.

Current Mood: Sad, Confused, Happy.
Current Music: Metallica, Nothing Else Matters.

Children begin by loving their parents; as they grow older they judge them; sometimes they forgive them.

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