It's not just you that I have a problem trusting or getting along with in my life. I tend to walk away from a lot a people in my life due to my abandonment issues and trust issues. The only difference is that I know that you will be there in some fashion at the end whether I like it or not, and I think certain other people that should be there or should be here now and aren't will be nothing more than forgotten memories to me and you.
I don't have a lot of patience for people and I do know the havoc that was wrought by certain influences and decisions back in our relationship. Not all that you have forgiven me for. Maybe one day. I know it's still a huge hurt for you to heal from.
I never should have made the choice to leave niagara either time, you won't admit it to me but you liked it when I was close... it gave you security, something lacking in your life and I made a lot of the wrong decisions when I should have done differently. Foolish pride on my part, I figured I wasn't as broken as I clearly am.
You are my favorite memory, one I will always fight to return to. I'm sick of the time of getting old and having these amazing adventures and memories without each other. We need to go back to what we were and have these kind of adventures together. Drinking without you kinda sucks.
I liked it better when we were at war. At least the battle lines were clear. Loving you and dealing with you're mental health sucks.
Go be you're whore for you're king that won't even kiss you on the mouth. I won't be here the next time you call.Enjoy your scum. I'm sick of being the forgiving one and always being in love with you every time you come back.
Next time I won't answer. That's a promise.
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