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Your Promise.

I haven't been with anyone in two years. I made a commitment to you when I bought the ring. I'm honouring that decision. No other women, not even talking about it. I'm going to wait until I have a final answer for you on it.  You are that important... you are the only one I want in my life. The only one I've wanted for a very long time. Our years were the best years of my life.


I'm going to stay single, I don't care if it takes 5 years or 50 years... you are the only one I want. I need you to know that. I made a commitment I'm trying to get you to understand that. I only want you. I love you.


You don't buy a ring for the one you love and chase other women or even talk about the possibility... I understand that.


You have my attention completely. I'm not looking elsewhere.


I'm sorry I made you mad at me. I love you.


All I ever wanted was just you're love, no one else's. 


I'll be always be here.


I just want you happy, but I think you'll be happiest with me. That's where I stand right now... just wanting you to be happy.


I just don't want to lose you, that is my worst fear in this life.... so many people we have lost... I don't know if I can deal with the day that phone call comes... that's why I try so hard and why we argue so much.


Foolish pride and stubbornness shouldn't keep us apart forever. This is where I stand. This is always where I'm going to stand. Yours forever.


It's what you truly want anyways.


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